I used to be that innocent girl who had the world at her feet. I was
beautiful and I had eyes and hips that could make men sway, and to top
it all up, I was a Christian, a very good Christian with a heart burning
for God.
When I entered the university, I met a guy, his name was Derrick. I
couldn’t believe my luck the first time I bumped into him on my way to
class, he had such a kind smile and a tender look that weakened my knees
when he spoke.Because I was late for class
we couldn’t talk much but barely three weeks later, I met him at the
fresher’s night party and I was
overwhelmed. We got talking and I found out that he was in his second year and from that night, we became an inseparable pair.
At first, we were friends and as months passed by, we got closer and closer and the chemistry between us was undeniable.
About a year after I entered the university, Derrick and I started
dating. He was everything a girl could ever want and desire save the
fact that he wasn’t so much of a Christian. Derrick had magical hands
that made him hard to resist and most times I fell for it. At first, I
felt bad but when I couldn’t help falling into the same pit I killed the
guilt on my inside. And then one day, one of my friends said I was
getting fatter and that got me thinking and in the process I began to
link the dots…first I had a vomiting spree every morning which I thought
was due to a flu and then I had this morning sickness which I felt was
due to stress and then my missing period…oh no it can’t be possible I
said to myself, I couldn’t be pregnant!!!
After a series of test outside school, I realized the deadliest
truth, I was indeed pregnant. I was only nineteen, I still had a whole
life ahead of me, what was I going to do. I couldn’t tell my parents,
they wouldn’t hear of it. I had to go to Derrick to tell him what I had
found out.
On telling him, I saw him fly into a temper I had never seen in my
life. He was so hysterical, calling me all sorts of names and I didn’t
even know when I started crying heart drenching tears of hurt and
betrayal. When he looked into my eyes he must have realized how scared
and hurt I was and so he pulled me close and ran his hands through my
hair until I had calmed down and then he said to me in the most subtle
voice ever ” why don’t you have an abortion”. I pulled back instantly, I
couldn’t have an abortion! But when he talked about my parents and the
sanctioning of the school and the fellowship which I belonged to, I knew
I had no other choice.
Derrick had made all the arrangements and so on the supposed day we went to the room- like clinic. I shivered all through my way
there but Derrick kept telling me that it would be okay and that he was proud that I made such a brave decision. When I entered
into the room where the abortion was supposed to take place I laid down
on the table trying to dissociate my mind from what I was about to do
and then a young man told me sternly, ” you know I can’t perform this
procedure with your underwear on” and then I began to pull it off. As I did this a sense of guilt overwhelmed me, first I had pulled off my underwear of pleasure and now I was pulling it off to get rid of the stigma the pleasure had brought…what a shame, I felt so exposed.
All through the times that I felt instruments coming in and out of
me, I kept thinking of the lady I had become and the hypocrite I had
transformed into. I let out a sigh, only if I can get through this I
muttered… only if…and then I felt a sharp pain pierce through the whole
of my body, I screamed but then the doctor told me to be quiet. I felt
another pain but this time I bit my lip and then the pain began to come
in successions. I instinctively knew that something was wrong but I was
too weak to talk or to move and then I heard the voices of Derrick and
the doctor talking about the fact that I was bleeding excessively. The
pain was so unbearable and I could feel myself getting weaker and
weaker. With the last strength in me, I pleaded with God ”Oh Lord I’m so
sorry for taking my under wears off, please forgive me.” and I drifted
into a world where the pain seemed less hurtful and the voices seemed
more distant.
Friends, our bodies are the temple of the Lord… Do not take off
your underwear when the time is not right. Lots of girls who gained
admission into the university as virgins eventually lost it so cheaply
to guys who have nothing to do with their
destinies. In a bid to get a certificate, they sold out a destiny that certificate cannot guarantee.
Friends, permit me to say it for the umpteenth time, even if you have lost your virginity, you can become chaste again! Record a
period of virginity from a particular time till marriage and in the
presence of God, you are as chaste as someone who has known no man
because you have chosen to honor Him again despite your past.
Virtuous women aren’t in bed with their fiancĂ© right now. If he is
sleeping with you…he’s sleeping with others. Yup, you are not the only
one. A boyfriend, even a long term one is STILL not a husband. Too many
women are giving boyfriends husband privileges! We keep losing what is
rightfully ours because we keep messing with what’s not ours. There is
just something classy about a
woman who can control her emotions!
Many have been laid on the slab of abortion, yet they keep involving
in activities that will take them back on that slab! Risking it all!
Please, DON’T TAKE OFF YOUR UNDERWEAR!; any man who has not signed his life to you is not worth it!
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